undescribed!

describable and indescribable,  both holds different meaning!
no words to describe or don't feel like describing is opposing each other in a great manner too!
people are to be known as having feelings and emotions.
But the question popped into my head this few days was the value of worth!
The value of "worth" is hard to measure whether it is towards yourself, your partner, your family, your friends, or even your enemies!
IS IT WORTH??

long return!

haha. Since May i've abandoned my blog! hmmmmm.
its time to update it. hehe. but i cant add in photos seeing that my phone bluetooth cant be used.
anyhow, its been two weeks since we're seperated!
miss HIM so much! and i cant wait to meet HIM!! arghhhh!!
anyhow, as usual, i did nothing much when i am back and the HIM know everything about my routine!!
hehe. btw, i keep on think back the time when u first hold my hand in the church van. the feeling is fantastic!!!
love it so much! that's the moment that i am feeling so happy and protected and blessed and alot alot of the positive feeling!!! thanks ah for all the time u spent on me!
hehe.
and the HIM = SIOW CHENG KAI!!!!
thanks dear, love you so much. the time u hold my hand changed my entire life and it was the best thing happened thorughout my life!!!!

Got used!

everytime it would ended up the same way as it normally is!
how great is it! hahahaaha.
not much time left with so much to do!
anyhow, i should learnt and get used to it!
all the best mandy chua!
chillax!!

L.I.F.E

There was a rich merchant who had 4 wives. He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies. He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.


He also loved the 3rd wife very much. He's very proud of her and always wanted to show off her to his friends. However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.


He too, loved his 2nd wife. She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant's confidante. Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.


Now, the merchant's 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household. However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.


One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, "Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I'll be alone. How lonely I'll be!"
Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.


The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant's heart. The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is so good over here! I'm going to remarry when you die!" The merchant's heart sank and turned cold.


He then asked the 2nd wife, "I always turned to you for help and you've always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave." The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.


Then a voice called out : "I'll leave with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The merchant looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, "I should have taken much better care of you while I could have !"


Actually, we all have 4 wives in our lives


a. The 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.


b. Our 3rd wife ? Our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, they all go to others.


c. The 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how close they had been there for us when we're alive, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.


d. The 1st wife is in fact our soul, often neglected in our pursuit of material, wealth and sensual pleasure.


Guess what? It is actually the only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it's a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we're on our deathbed to lament! 

do u know how irresponsible for u to utter those words. our relationship is in terms of benefits??
i thought in the afternoon u told me that u need me and cannot leave me?? why would u utter those words?? do u know how hurtful is it??

hahaha

Dunno, actually why do u wanna be with me?? From Overall, i need u more than u need me, u have no benefit to be with me, n i get so many benefits from u..

life goes on!

five days of relaxing really bring a big difference into our relationships!!
it fells like our bond has become stronger.
not only in terms of love, but also in terms of friendship!
this is really an unforgettable memories that would be instilled all along the way of my life journey!
it was amazing spending time with my lovely star!!
not everyone has the chance to spend time iwth their love one just like the way i spent it!!
arghhhhhh
miss it so so so much!!!!
dear, i want to go more and more trips with u!
i want to spend time with u!
i want to stay with u!!!!!
dear, sorry for my attitude and i will try to change
hehe.
remind me on this!!
and one thing u must do!!!
which is
love me more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you!!!!
my lovely star star!!!!

love you!!!!

Love you a little bit more

I love you a little bit more when you call me honey
I love you a little bit more when you hold my hand
I love you a little bit more when you hug me.

I love you a little bit more. Every day.

If

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.

If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.

If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you.

But I did, I do and I always will

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If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right!

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If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.

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I love you. Like a fat kid loves cakes.

 

 

siow cheng kai, love you so much!!! hehehe. my fatty star!!! my fat kiddo!!!!

april love!!

its april ad!! so fast!!!!!!
anyhow, my days with my dear is full with memories and "fats"!!! haha
ate too much!!!!
anyhow, this coming monday if everything is going smoothly, we will be heading to kk!!! yeah!!!!
and later to sandakan!! together gether with my lovely dear!!!!!!
hehe.
cant wait for it!!! and finally it marks to an end of a torturous week!! 5 assignments with 1 midterm and 1 quiz!! haha
but there is more coming too after the sem break!!! hmmmm... life of a student i suppose!!!
dear dear, we must jia you together gether kay!!!
love you dear so much!! hehe.
dear,
when two people are meant for each other,
no time is too long,
no distance is too far,
and no one can ever tear them apart!

returning!!!

it's been so long since i last updated my blog!!
hehe. abandoned it for some time due to several reasons!!
anyhow, i just celebrated my first year anniversary with my love one, siow cheng kai!!!
woohoooo!!!
time really do flies!!! lol. without realising, it has been a year being together.
being together for a year with lots of things happening while walking through the journey we called life!!! we laugh, we cry, we travelled, we quarreled, we feel, we love and we care for each other!!!!
so much that has been done and so much more awaiting in the future to be ventured by both of us together gether!!!!
dear, thanks for ur heart and love!! thanks for willing to cook for me one of my fav dish, bitter gourd!!!
it is so memorable!!! thanks dear.
thanks for u to be willing ot try out things u've never done and never thought to be done!!!
hehe. i am so luck to have you to cook for me, to care for me, to love me, to miss me and to be by my side as my soul partner!!!!
love you so much dear!!!
now, we shall countdown for our second anniversary!!!! hehe.
love you siow cheng kai!!! hopefully u like the card i made!!! hehe.

unpredictable!

things are really unpredictable! haha. we've been talking whole day about meeting up for dinner!
den we were looking for rental car for few hours but we failed to get it!
haha, but in a sudden, a phone call lighten up our night!
such a coincidence for the night! haha.
not bad not bad!
it is destined for us to meet up i guess!! hehe.

290212!

4 years once leap year is considered special but when it is added with a wonderful day spent is an extra to the specialness!!!!
yes!!! thats what i gonna write!
today is really a special day as we went out to town randomly without considering on how to get back to campus! (this is the first unique point)
planning to go town by bus but ended up going using church van! (this is not unique but somehow stressful environment)
walked together gether with dear from milimewah till manjarasa and later from manjarasa to shell petrol station (second and third unique point)
ate at manjarasa and dear dear cooked for me! yay!!!! (fourth unique point)
talked alot and spent a wonderful and memorious time with dear dear whole night! (fifth unique point)
spent a good good night with my dear and the night belonged to just both of us! (the most unique point and the best thing happening to me)
love love dear!!!
we spent our first leap year happily together gether and u never leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!
love you my dearest dear!!
u are the best dear i ever have and wanted to have!!!
i love you!!!
sincerely from bottom of my heart!
i really love you very much!!!
hehe.
as i've mentioned!
i really hope that we can walk through our future together gether by overcoming all the obstacles and challenges including both our parent perception and thinking!
not only that but including building of a better and bright future!!
love you my dear!!
happy leap year! hehe.
in another 20 days would be our first anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love is in the air!

its feb 14th~
HAPPY VALENTINEs DAY to my dearest lao gong!!!
siow cheng kai!!!!
hehe. love you my valentine!!
we will celebrate it next monday kay!!
prepare my valentine gift oh!!
p/s: I yearned for your hugs and kisses as my valentine gift!!!
hehe.
dear, love you!
sorry for being so immature, childish, hot tempered, and whatsoever!
but i want to tell u that i really do love you!!
hehe.
dear, miss you so much!
anyhow, happy valentines day!!!

 "It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

dear, u are the only one my heart told me that u are the right one for me! love you!!
everything about you is important to me!
love you goodness and also your weaknesses!!
i will appreciate you more but u too!
don't always leave me alone at night crying till morning!
it is the worst feeling i dun like and dun wish to endure through the night!!
love you!!!!
muacksss muacksss!!!!
less than 3 my dear, cheng kai!

siow cheng kai, this post is dedicated to you!!!!!

hope!

what is hope??

• to desire with expectation of obtainment
• to cherish a desire with anticipation
• to expect with confidence
• to hope without any basis for expecting fulfillment

got this meaning from the dictionary!

hmmm. then i shall use this word wisely.

i hope for alot of things in my life in terms of obtaining hapiness.

but till now, eveytime i feel hope is at the corner, 

*wossshhh* it is GONE!

till now, till this moment, till this day, it is still the same!

hope is vanished into the thin air!

lost and not to be found.

once again, i got to find a new hope!

hmmm. its a really tiring process!

the only hope i wont give up is on MYSElF.

please be fair with me, dun take myself away from me!! 

.......

again. haha. no words to describe it!
being silent would be the best refering to the quote, silence is golden!

Being cold doesn't necessary mean that you don't care, sometimes, it's a way of protecting

yourself from getting hurt.

maybe?? haha. copied from the facebook!

life!

it is a fact for me to born into this world with what i have now...
i shall be glad and appreciate everything as all this is given to me unconditionally and there is alot others worst of than me outside the world.
but..........
nocommentforthetimebeing.

the day of the day~

today and today and the day!
today is the day. haha.
life is really not rewarding!

back!!

almost two weeks le i din update my blog! hehe. been lazy for awhile.
anyway, since chinese new year just passed, it would be best to blog about my chinese new year this year!
first new year where i din get myself any new clothes! ya. not at all!!
i am wearing all my old clothes. hmmm. nothing new for this year! so pitiful.
and i did nothing much on the first and second day of new year. is only on the third day of the new year where my mum's colleague came over to my house to pay my mum a visit and also on the fourth day, i went to pavilion with steph, lili and jia yen and later at night, dinner with lai yew's( my bro gf) family.
on the fifth day, i went back to kuantan and did nothing much there but only gaining weight for eating so much nice foods!!!!!!!!! thanks ah ma, ah gong, ah ku, ah yi, be yi, be ku!! (all my relatives over at kuantan)
hehe. back to kl on the 11th day of the new year. went out with jing yee for a japanese steamboat dinner on the night of the 13th day of the new year near my house.
while on the 14th day, i went to midvalley with wen yen and won teng. and lastly, on the chap goh mei, 15th day, i went to bagan(port klang) for a seafood dinner and later on a session of drinks a mendolin pub near subang.
that goes my 2012 cny!!! hehe.

off again!!

will be back to kuantan again this time!! for a week!!
no skype again. hmmmm..
it is funny as now i am going back reluctantly and when i'll be coming back to kl reluctantly too!!
this is human nature. would never satisfy with what is on the hand!
hehe.
anyhow, been back for a week and the half!!! miss my dear dear!!!!!!!!
wanna cry out loud!! haih. felt so jealous to see the people around me gets to spend their new year and time together gether with their dearest!
especially my bro! haih.
me?? haih...
anyhow, left with only 25 days before i am able to be with my lil star together gether again!!
no one can predict what would happen on the future!
so it would be wise to stay in present and appreciate the moment of it!
dear, dun abandon me and dun leave me!!
i need u just like as much as u need me!!
no one scores better but we are the same!!
human being created by the same creator and we are the SAME!!
hehe.
dear, i miss u so so so so much!!!
i love youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dear, faster come to my side please!!!!!!!!!

10th!

blink blink and its our 10th monthsary! hehe.
dear dear, happy 10thmonthsary oh! love love!
we've walk the journey of life together gether for 10 months le and it would be another 10 months and another 10 months and another 10 months till the last day of my life! hehe.
dear, love you!
miss you damm much now!
cant wait till the 11th mothsary because by then, it would be our meeting day!!
yeahoooo...cant wait!
dear, have a safe ✈ tmr!
fly back to my side and later to your family side!
hehe. love love dear!!!
dear, happy chinese new year oh!
i will be celebrating my first valentine but without u! ='(
dear, miss u so badly! haih
love love!
i smurf u!!
i love you!

thursday!!

weee, its thursday ad! so fast! in another 2 more days my dear dear is flying back lu!! hehe. love love...
finally my dear dear can go back to his home sweet home!!!
finally my dear dear would be happy!!!
finally my dear dear wont be alone!!!
and finally i can see my dear dear for awhile on saturday!!!!!!!
yeah..
although it would be just a short meet up, but it is worth! anticipate to see my dear
miss him so badly!!! arghhh!!
love love my dear.
siow cheng kai! i cant believe u are mine!!!!!!!
yahoooo... mine!!
can u be mine forever???
can i keep ur heart forever???
can i be ur only partner forever???
can i be under ur surveliance forever???
can i be ur only special loves one forever???
hehe.
i knew the answer would be yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehe...
siow cheng kai, mandy chua love you oh!!
love you ah!! love love!!!!
<3 <3 <3

the days without u!

back to kl supposely meant to be happy but i am not!
honestly, i enjoyed myself more at kl rather than labuan and without the occurence of backstabbings and gossips!
but, i miss out the most important person here!
it is like a life with a hole in it!
haih, i miss my dear dear.
i miss my precious dear.
i miss my precious cheng kai!
i miss u siwo cheng kai!!!!!!!
where are u!!!!
i need you!!!!

the time comes!

finally, the time that i am not anticipating for and hope to turn away from it comes. here, once again i am going back to kl le! hmmm.
people is anticipating to go back but i hate to go back!
i hate the feeling of seperation with my dear dear!! haih.
why must there be seperation on this world! why?? ishhhh!!!
i miss u alot alot ah dear!!!!
i need you now!!!
where are you??????????
i thought u promised to wipe off my tears but where are u??? =(

dumb dumb!

dumb dumb dear! why would u be upset and emo while u'll be sitting for 4 papers next week?? har? dear ah! after being with u for almost a year u still can feel my love love towards u? dear, i am yours ah! dun need to worry about it de wor!
i am urs and this is the fact that cannot be changed unless u dun want me le!
but i knew u wont dump me! right my fluffy dear?
dear, i love you!
i trully loves u!
i heart you!
i smurf you!!!
mandy chua loves cheng kai!
MANDY CHUA XIN YI LOVES SIOW CHENG KAI!!
dear, i am always here for u!
you are my heart and soul!
will stay connected kay my lovely fluffy dear!
love you!!!!

time is nearing~

next week at this time, i'll be back to kl. it would be something hilarious to others for me for being sad to return back to my hometown as others are anticipating for it so badly. i'll am different as my dearest us at here studying together gether. and when we get back to our own place, we wont be able to meet each other. how would i be not sad about it? =((((
haih. it is a sore to my eye to see others being able to go out shopping together gether before chinese new years with their partner, visiting friend's house, spent time together and also doing alot alot of things together gether and not alone! =(
hmmmm, will my dear abandoned me when he gets back to his comfort zone??
will he throw me aside?? arghhhhh... T.T
hmmm. i bet he wont because his heart is being stolen by me!
hehe. his heart is with me now. yeah!!!!
anyhow, its chinese new year and i should not be sad but i just cant control it!
=(((((
hmmmm. hope everything will goes on smoothly!! =)
loves you my lil star and my lil piggy kai!
love love!!! =)

it's 2012!

this is my first post in this term of new year!
time really flies! OMG.
i am having exam now and its almost time to go back home le! =(
leaving labuan is not the point here but leaving my dearest is the main point!
haih. will be apart for 4 weeks!! arghhhh........
chinese new year is coming too! din anticipate for it but it wont be a bad thing to anticipate for. hehe.
anyhow, this new year would be the year for mandy chua is turning 21 years old!! old ad la!!! haih.
but, still i shall strive to achieve something in this new year! Hopefully, i will get through this year accordingly and happily!
siow cheng kai, u are the one that make me cry. but u are the one also that give me joy, laughter, protection, love and u hold my smile on my face!!!
love you =)