my holidays!

just as when i realise, time really pass very very fast! it is now almost the end of my long four months break from my studies! just in another 2 more weeks which is equivalent to 14 days, i'll be back to the island and start my 3rd sem!
hmmm. thinking back, i did nothing much this long sem break as compared to my other friends where they were able to involve themselves in working life, doing intern, visiting here and there, taking short courses and etc etc.
as for me, i spent most of my time at home, online, going out for drinks and movies, shopping, visiting my grandparent and fulfilling my national service! other than this, i would be eating, sleeping, lazing around doing ntg! what a waste of time.haha.
*luckily i am not turning into a big buffalo*
okieee, flashing back!
i am back to kl on may 12th with my boyfie!
12th of may!
crying and crying and crying! but that was my first experience flying with my lil star and spent some time together around kl city and had a meal at wong kok before we were seperated! *sob sob*

13th till 22nd of may!
staying at home, hanging out with friends, packing and lazing around before stepping my first step into NS camp at sungkai, perak.

23rd of may!
my first day at NS! OMGGGG... haha. undesricable feeling.
sad, nervous, excited, awaiting, missing, loving, home-sick, happy, glad and etc etc...so much of mixed feelings!!

23rd of may till 30th july!
NS life begins with anger, sadness, ungrateful, complaints and other negative feelings and ended with a joy of relieved, excitement and a better family relationship! learnt something there and experienced new things in life! not a bad experience though. and lil star was awaiting for me without any sign of giving up on me!! yay.. love you love you!!! ♥♥♥

30h july till 8th of august!
was staying at home as usual and did nothing much! my laptop is my bestie for this period of time! accompanying me from day to night! hehe.

9th aug till 15th aug!
went back to kuantan to visit my grandpa and granny. spent about a week there and i my grandma cooke a few of my fav dishes! yummy. *craving for it* hehe.
had fun there although my time spent there is almost the same as when i am at home. hehe. this one week is full with arguments with dear! luckily we manage to pull it through and overcome it! yeah. love love!! ♥♥♥

22nd aug till 24th aug!
a new experience for me! hehe.. went to boyfie's place and spent some time with him. although the trip is not ended that well but still i am happy with the time spent with him. hopefully everything will goes on smoothly as we wanted! *god bless me*

25th aug till 11th sept!
again, my time is spent at home and hanging outs with friends! hehe. went to viva's mall and met a few of my ex-schoolmates where i din see them for ages! haha. watched a movie with ns friends (yong, run and chris). future plans would be hanging out with steph, jia yen, ws, jimmy and henry, and also my ex-schoolmates, jia hui, bear bear, ah fut and suck yee! hehe. hopefully i am able to meet my other friends before i am bacck to the island again!

*my ss pic when i got nothing to do at home* hehe.

whinning is not the solution!

everything happened as in God's will! we cant question it because it is beyond our wisdom to evaluate it but we can only believe in his will for it to happen!
everything happened now in my life is really beyond my control and it is not as what i've expected!
there is good and bad things happening in my life now!
but i wont just sit at the corner and whine!
it is useless. tears are meant to be release but not as a solution!
crying do help out but not in solving the particular problem!
hope that everything will be fine soon!
will be back in order soon!
*pray pray*
i always tell this to my friends but now i am telling you!
only you will have my words now for the moment!
"i am always here for you whenever you need me! anytime, anywhere, anyhow and whatever it is!"
you got it?
for now i wont be available to enyone else except you!
i will be your listening ears, helping hands and if u need it, ur talking mouth!
dun keep it all to urself!
you are just merely a human!
you are not made of steel!
you do need support and allow me to be your support!
love you!
awaiting for you!
love love!!
♥♥♥

things happened with reasons!

things might happened as not like we want it to be at some time!
but everything happened for a reason behind.
thinking back, just as like u tried to explain to me about GOD and your saviour.
we exist because of them and can i link this to what had happened this few days??
i went to johor because of you, but you were scolded because of me.
all this is because of our love!
maybe it is affected by the time and also the people around us.
you were scolded by your parent because they love you!
while you talked back to your mum because you love me!
and i cant help out although i love you!
things had happened.
put it in this way, through this we learnt something and understands your parent's thinking and view.
hence, what done is done! what past is past.
pray to your God and ask for forgiven and i believe HE will show you the way!
dear, i really did enjoy myself! believe me!
but i knew that maybe i really did not showed up in a proper way.
u cant blame your parent my dear.
they are worry about you!
believe me. one day if our love is strong enough, it will touches their heart and they will und why!
haha. i am just crapping but i do believe in reasons!
there is always a reason behind everything that happen!
hehe.
dear, love you!
all i can say is be strong and remember you are not alone.
your parent is harsh in words but their love to you is great just as like your love to them!
and you will always have a guidance from your creator and also me by your side!
remember oh, mandy chua is always here for you!
love you!
♥
♥
♥

woohooo!!

today is sunday, my lil star is at nilai where the place is just 45 minutes away from kl! i wanna see him but its ok. i wait, i wait and i wait! just in another few more hours and i'll be able to meet him.. yay!!
although it is just a short trip but i hope that it will be very meaningful for both of us! hehe.
love u lil star!
i wanna see ur stupid face, touch ur stupid body, kiss ur stupid mouth and hug my lil star!!!!
lil star, finally i can touch u, feel u, hold u and kiss u!
yeah!!
muackss muackss!!
awaiting for tmr!! =)

lil star!!

lil star, u've been busy again today! and i guess u must be very tired! sorry ah for not being by ur side to relax u down!..
lil star, remember oh, fatty star is always here supporting you and waiting for you oh!
lil star, is not being in love makes me happy but it is being in love with you makes me happy oh!
sometimes words are hard to find to form that perfect line to let you know you are always on my mind!
but you are really always in my mind and heart!
lil star, don't worry. you have someone always loving, waiting, caring, and needing you all the time by your side!
do you realise it?? hehe.
fatty star loves little star!
the only star shinning brightly in my heart!!
muacksss!!!

little star, how are you?
i am back le! miss me mah? hehe.
lil star, alot of things happened recently. but, i wanna let u know that my love to you has not change oh!
hehe.
lil star, i am always here for u kay!
always bear in mind you still have fatty star oh!
although this fatty star is sometimes childish, troublesome, make u angry and frustrated, but fatty star's heart is always for u oh!
hehe.
lil star, fatty star loves you! =)

one week!!

hmmmm.. it is weird to realise that whenever i will be leaving home going somewhere, my heart seems to be very heavy to leave my house and leave nd my laptop..
i can feel the distance between us is so far away!
is it because i cant get to see you through skype??
is it because i cant get updated with ur stuff??
haih..
one week le! i am going back to kuantan for one week le!
and i cant see you even through skype le!!
i start missing u badly now!!!
haih..
i am really in need of you!
can you come to my side now?
even if it is in my dream??
i really miss u alot alot!!
haih..
little star, can u come to my side and shine brightly beside me??
=(

hearts you!! =)

meeting you was fate..becoming your friend was my choice ..but..faling so madly in love with you was beyond my control !

you are mine!! you belongs to me!!

love you love you!!

life is unpredictable!

appreciate every moment and every second we have together!!

hehe!!

love love!

you've been occupying my heart!

make sure it is ongoing beating!!

dun neglect my heart kay!!

hehe...
money cant buy anything, but ur smile bought my heart and also my love!!
keep on smiling!!
anything that could take away ur smile, pls share it with me because i wanna get rid of it together gether with you my darling baby!!
little star, make sure u are shinning brightly!!
fatty star will always be by ur side!!! m
love love!!

tiring!!

wonder how shopaholic can keep their shoping spirit so up high??
been walking around de whole day and i really can shout out, I am tired!!!!
hmmm, although i am walking with my grandma, but still i felt very tired!!!
but, the satisfaction covers up my tiring mood la..
at least my grandma is happy!!
hehe..
bi bi, u must be tired too!!
have a good rest kay!!
the next time i wanna walk with u the whole day, the whole month , the whole year, walking down through my future with u always by my side!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe...
dear, 143!!(guess what is it!) hehe!!!

back!!

i am finally back!
been back for few days and only now i spend some time writing on my blog. it is maybe because i am too used to write letters rather than typing. hehe.
btw, there is new changes in me after ns.
a new look (darker complextion)
a new hair (like a bush)
a new body figure ( a bit slimmer with muscle on my arm)
a new mind (different perception of seeing something)
a new bunch of friends
a new memory and story
but still the same old love!
hehe..
my heart is still being occupied by HIM!!
no one can ever take over his place in my heart!!
hehe..
yes you, Siow Cheng Kai, u are the HIM!!
hehe..
love you love you!
thanks waiting for me all this while!
love love.. muackzzzzz
do u love me??
hehe..
u will reply, what crap are u asking! hehe
love you, my dear baby cheng kai! =)