dust dust!

i din update this blog for quite some time due to the limited internet line!
gonna wipe off the dust now! hehe.
christmas was two days ago.
to be honest, labuan does not give me any feel for christmas. not because of the people aorund me but maybe is because lack of decoration to on the street to bring out the christmas feeling.
anyhow i did enjoyed my christmas this year!
get to celebrate it with me dearest, performing on stage with my dearest, having christmas dinner with my dearest, giving and receiving gift with my dearest and most important i am together gether with my dearest! hehe.
dear, love you!
to be honest, i did felt dissapointed early in the day when i din receive anything from u!
hehe. but u really did give me a surprise! i love surprises! hehe. love you love you!
and thanks for the smurf smurf!
i really like it but i dun love it cox i can only love you, siow cheng kai! hehe. thanks ah dear! i really like the smurf smurf!
this year christmas is really different. back in time, i attended christmas party, went out dinner on christmas, hanging out at the shopping complex, went for countdown and went to a catholic church but this year, i did everything at once! hehe. and there is additional of love love in the process! hehe.
thanks ah dear!! love you love you!
although i cant express my love love to you as what u expected, but i will try to control my temper and give you more love love! hehe.
thanks ah my dear.
another few more days would be new year!
hehe. and gonna be almost a year we've been together.
and i wanna be with you for the rest of my life!
i wanna be you wife!! hehe.
lao gong, love you!! =)

woosh!

blink blink! less than a week and it is christmas! roughly about 2 weeks and is new year! time really passed damm fast!
exam is coming! oh no! i am going back to kl! oh no again!
i do want to leave labuan but somehow i find that the life at labuan is not bad after all!
partly and majorly is because of the presence of my dear!
hehe. i scolded my dear again today but hopefully he understands why would i do so!
i yearned for his company to be honest! it is an eye sore to see that the cat can be together gether with ghost for one whole day in the library! exchanging thoughts and study together while i am all alone here!
hmmm. but anyhow, still studies is the most important thingy as compared to being together!
so dear, u must put in more effort for this coming exam! show that u can do it!
as promised since last sem, whoever got dean list would be given a treat at grand dorsette! i want!! yummy yummy but it seems so hard! hmmmm. but i'll try my best! hehe! u too dear. must try ur best kay!! so long u did ur best u can feel the sweetness of ur effort!! =)
love you!! love you love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love love!

yesterday i told dear dear what was bothering me. hehe. felt relief a bit. sorry ah dear. u din complain bout me but i am the one always complaining about u! hehe. u wont mind bah.
love you.
dear ah. u must jia you lor.
exam is drawing near the corner ad.
must buck up ah.
please duns lack lor.
love you.
anything, i am always here to help u.
love you! muackzz!!!

assignments again!

hehe. will be rushing an assignment again which the due date would be tmr! ya, tmr! hehe.
somehow or rather due to my irresponsible attitude i dun have much feeling about it! hehe.
somehow, the assignment would be done when the time comes.
hmmm. feeling indifferent for the moment. something is bothering but i dunno what is it. haih.
but still, everything should be ok and fine soon!
cheers!!

december!!!

its december ad! hmm. so fast...
christmas is around the corner! we wish u a merry christmas, we wish u a merry christmas and a happy new year! hehe.
when christmas is here, our final exam is oso here too!! hmmm...
this month 20th would be our 9th month together gether lu! yay!!!
but our first valentine we wont be able to celebrate it together! =(
we have to be seperated soon.
anyhow and anyway, i wanna appreciate every moment now because we wont know what will happen tmr. hehe.
i will be scolding u here and then but i still love u very much oh! love u!! hehe.
muackzz muackzzz...

Tiring week!!!

This one whole week would be a tough one for us I suppose. Assignments due dates are nearing and revision should be started in order to prevent last minute work! Hmmmm. Been deprived with sleep since last few weeks. Haih. And it will last forces more weeks I guess. Arghhhh. But no worries, I can get it through de because I have a strong support and shoulder for me to hang on. I have my dearest darling baby always there for me! Hmmmmm. But the sad part would be in another 43 days, we will be separated again. Haih. Distance is that far but our heart would be near. Dear,i start to miss u ad. How?? :(
I want to cry le!! :(((

Long long time ago!!

Hehe. So long ad I din update my blog. It seems like n-years after my last post! Hmmm.. Firstly, I wanna boast about my lovely dear. Hehe. 28th was apk event. And my lovely dear is really the loveliest. Appreciate what u did for me! Thanks dear. Love you so so much. Hehe. Dear, really thanks a lot for everything! Hehe. Btw, I wanna apologize too for not. Waiting fr u and go back first. Really sorry ah. Haih. I really really miss the moment to go back with u le. Haih!! I really do want to go back with u ah. I hate it. I hate the feeling i hate why must it be like this. Hmmm. I dunno how to tell but I really upset too ah. I dun want to go back early ah. And the most important is sorry for scolding u. Sorry ah dear. Really sorry. But more scolding will be coming too. Hehe. Dear, please bear with me Kay. Really really love you. Muackzzzzzz.

a week!

so long i din update my blog le! that is due to the fact that i am onnectionless with internet!!! hmmm..
dec is coming so soon and it is about time to go back again! my lil star!! =(
btw, a week passed with not much updates. everything is like as usua. nothing special happened.
if there is anything bad gonna happen, i wont be afraid neither!
i got my lil star to protect me! hehe.
lil star promised to protect me and would not allow anyone to hurt me!yay!
lil star! i will protect u too!!
u can have my shoulder to lean on, my ear to our in ur words and my heart to keep u warm and loved!
u have me too lil star!
love you!!!!

yeahhh!!!

finally exam is over! hehe. no more midterm! yeah yeah yeah!!!
hahaha. last week this time i am still at kk! tmr should be the day i am going to pulau sapi de!!
miss the moment there. miss the time we went for snorkelling la. miss the time where i can enjoy and enjoy and enjoy! hehe.
but now still consider enjoying since my midterm is over. just hope that my marks wont kill me la!
hehe.
my dear, today i'm so touched when i knew that my dear wanna make me happy and smile!
but kena scolding from me pulak! hehe. sorry ah dear.
hehe. love you! i want more and more! i am that selfish de le!!! hahaha.
stupid dear! love you!!
my lovely lil star, muackzz!!!

hahahehehoho!

stupid mandy slept for only 4 hours rushing on an assignment that are supposed to be hand in only on this friday! haha. but its okay. at least one thing is done without needing to worry about it! hehe.
btw, lil star, i still miss u as much as last night!
haih, i think i really will breakdown and cried unstoppable when i have to be seperated with u and back to kl! haih.
lil star, how about u le? hmmm... dear dear, love love!!!!

one day!

one whole day i've been missing my lil star! =(
miss him so so much!
somehow the feeling is like the same as when i am going back to kl last sem where we were seperated at klia! hmmm. how would it be when we were gonna seperate again this coming sem break? haih.
anyhow, dear, i really love and miss u so so much!
dear, anything happened also u wont need to worry cox u have me by ur side! dear, everything can be solved, only that is the time duration that make the difference. so just stay positive and overcome it!
u can do it de my dear! hehe. love love.
there is only one thing that bring happiness to me which is being loved by u!
thanks ah my love one to be the miracle of my life that brings in so much impossible things and memories into my life journey! really happy to have u!
btw, xiao kai lost his virginity ad!!! opppssss. haha.
love you! muackzzz!!!
love love! i am loving u as much as i can!
the depth and measurements of love towards u cant be measured through normal measurements but i can only tell u , i love u as much as my heart can hold! muackzz!!!

hu ha ha!

i am back after a 4 days trip to KK. tired die ah! but everything is nice and enjoying with dear dear by my side although we did quarrel! hmmmm.
the journey started on wednesday morning where we were asked to be ready at 11 as the vean will be here to pick us up! we went to KK by big ferry and later bus. Stayed at the methodist church at kk. travelled around squeezing inside a school bus!
hehe.
first day: journey to KK! by ferry and bus! 1 borneo at night and later back to church!

second day: the most tiring day! one whole day at kundasang! (went to hot spring, walk over the canopywalk, saw cows, milk, pizza for dinner and later off to pastor lim's house!

third day: went for breakfast. off to pulau sapi! saw a flock of dolphins! amazing!! went for snorkeling and later went to CP at night!

fourth day: went and have a look around the main campus, went to 1B and later back to labuan!

overall, this trip is satisfying but tiring! felt so tired with the tight schedule. but the most amazing particular is spending all the time with my lil star!
he took care of me while i am soundly asleep, walked with me to everywhere i wanted to go although he is tired, talked to me and sweet-talked whenever i am angry or upset, overcome his fear and tiredness to walk across the canopywalk and also jungle trekked! be there always for me when i need or dun need him! snorkel with me although he dun have the confident but to protect me, he is willing to swim farther and farther away! carried my luggage bag on the way back to labuan! protected me all the time and cared bout me so much! worry about me as i got the allergic thingy!
dear, u are really my love one! the one and only one! dun ask me to get another boyfie lor!
i only want u and only u, siow cheng kai! no one else! love you my darl! muackzzz...
dear, thanks for everything! love you so much!!

love love!

today woke with 3 of my housemates leaving the house back to their hometown!
hmmm... i oso want to go back!!!!!
but its okay la! lil star is here wid me! luckily i have him! hehe. if not, i will cry non-stop!
hehe.
lil star, are u having the same feeling as me? haha. dear dear! hehe.
btw, i wanna show off my love love here! haha.

all this is from my lil star! hehe. sometimes he is really sweet till i felt like i am an ant! haha. thanks ah dear! love u lots! muackzzz!
remember, anything happened, ur fatty star us strong enough to support u ah!! muackzzz!!
love you!!!

happy day!

every day is a happy day! hehe. love love...
today is my first time to eat buffet together gether with my lil star! hehe. weee~
eat until full full! hehe.
lil star, i love you! as for now, i am anticipating for the next trip! kk trip!!! yahoo...
hehe. today i felt so relax after a hectic week! hehe.
midterm is over but assignment is coming soon. =(

yeahhhh!!

one week of freedom! freedom here brings in the meaning of free from classes and assignments for a week before a hectic start to the end of this semester.
hehe. yeah yeah!
can sleep, eat and play!
hehe..
next week i will be going to kk! hehe. with my lil star.
ancipating for it!]
hehe. yahoooo!!!!

mid-term fever!

mid term, mid-term, mid-term and mid-term! hehe. everyday mid-term. not bad!
at least i can take this as an oppurtunity to catch up with my studies!
i can get know what am i studying all this while. hehe.
but its a bit packed! all cramped up to be at the same time!
hmmm. still, i can get it through de!
hehe.
dear lil star, u can do it too!
jia you jia you!!
love love!!!!

vow made!

i've been eating nasi lemak all this while for almost a month ad!
made a vow today!
i wanna stop myself from eating nasi lemak everyday!
fattening and heaty. but i am afraid that i might failed to do so.
just couldn't resist the temptation!
hmmm..
but with faith and courage, i can stop myself from eating nasi lemak de!
hehe.
sounds so serious! haha.

la la la la la, sing a happy song!

another week passed! without realising, day by day passed with a glimpse leaving behind shadow.
hehe. while lil star leave bend his foot steps in my heart!
lil star, next week would be my mid-term week! omy god!
hehe. but i can get through de!
take this as a pushing factor to get warm up and catch up with my studies!
lil star, i want love love!!
hehe. i want hug hug!!
btw, when i can get to go to the beach again with u? hmmmm...

day ended!

hmmm.. my weekend comes to an end ad! and now is the time to face a challenging and tough week le. all the midterms and quizes and assignments and homeworks. omg!
but i wont complain as all this is part of studying and it is the main reason for me to be here. hehe.
btw, i wanna thank my dear for the bible today. thanks lil star! =)
lil star, love you. sorry for scolding u when it is not ur fault. sorry for jelous over someone that not worth the time to be wasted between both of us. sorry for being forgetful and careless. sorry for being childish sometimes.
but lil star, all this is because i love you oh! hehe. lil star muack muack!
i want hug hug!!!!! hehe.

hmmm. what's on their mind??

this blog post is merely for me to complain!
arghhhhhh....
APK assignment's due date is on mon. asking my group members to hand in on friday would be the best time. they did hand it on time. but when it comes to editing part, i really don't understand what's on their mind. it's either i failed to be a leader or i failed in explaining it to them! i tried my best to deliver the idea of our business to them ad. they did not attend the meetings when i want them to be here yet they din even take the effort to ask on what is going on!
they wrote the report is just for the sake of writting it. but when it comes to the day of getting the evaluation marks, they will know how to complain. but did they stop and think for a moment why they will receive such marks???
hmmmmmmm.......

Develop planning for product and stock.

·         We provide a delicious food and interesting games. We provide a variety of patterns for t-shirt. The customer has chances for choosing their patterns.

·         Create a unique and innovative product that will differentiate us from the rest of the competition.

·         Sell the products that are of the high quality, as well as keeping the customers happy with all of our products.

·         We obtain t-shirt from suppliers and then we use t-shirt for develop our skill as technology student with providing a variety of attractive designs to customers.

is this a report????????????????????????
haih....

simple mind!

dear, life is so much simple with u by my side! although now it seems like i get scolding from u moreoften then before! haha. but i love it! maybe as what u said is true. i am like a small kid. to me, scolding from u is a way from u in expressing ur care towards me! hehe. the more u scold, the more u care! if u dun care about me, u wont waste the time to scold me!
hehe. the time is approaching nearer and nearer as the day is passing day by day. the time that i meant is the time for seperation when it comes to semester break! =(
haih. could't imagine how would i react when it is the time for us to go back to our hometown~
haih. i dun want to think le!!!
haha. i wanna enjoy the day i have with u now! this matters most!
dun wannna spoil my mood thinking about the uncertainty. it would be better to stay in the present i suppose!
dear dear, love love!!
i want christmas present!!!! hehe.
bluekkk.. i am that demanding de la! hehe.
love you!!!
love me more kay! =)

love love!

hehe. day by day, week by week and month by month, without realising the time passed, it is our 7th monthesary ad! hehe. love u love u!
everyday is such a blessing as i can be awake with u by my side, guilding me and walking the journey of life with me! hehe.
dear, as we go on, we might face a lot of challenges, problems and troubles, but with our strong love bonding, i believe that we can get it through de!
hehe. yeah yeah..
love u my dear!
muackss!!!

days!

undeniable that time really pass very very fast! maybe because i am procratisnating but de time is really amazlingly flying away leaving me far nehind and hard to catch up with it!
hmmm.. things aren't getting any better!
still as what they are!
maybe even worse then before but i dun care! they are not worth my care and attention!
i rather be alone then forcing myself doing smtg i dislike!
my lil star, do u feel the same?? hmmm...

days are not that easy but it is not that tough too!!

dear, God has His own plan in setting the journey ahead of you. just like me previously, i am so close to Axxxxx but what happen now? i really get to know her true identity and character. without her did i die?? haha. i am even better then before right? agree?
so maybe, this round of challenge in ur life is to wake u up and really see the true self of a person. dear, talking bad bout pplis nice but i believe the return from our creator is even better. haha.
dear, u can get to know through this period of time who is ur friend and who is not!
how deep is the friendship bond between u and that particular person!
take this as an oppurtunity and not challenge or misery!
love u!!!
mandy chua is always reserved for u whether u need her or not!!
muackzzzz....

sing a happy song!

smurly-happy! my dearst finally bought ferero rocher for me! wahhhhhh!!!! hehe.
yes yes yes!!!!!!!!! love it so muchie!!! thanks my dearest!!!
love you. =)
dear dear, our life is full with up and downs but i am glad that God gave us the chance to meet and face it together gether!
dear, no matter what, i am always here for you kay!
remember this!!!!!
mandy chua is always by ur side waiting for you!
your heart is mine and u cannot take it back ad!!!
neh neh pu pu!! hehe.
love love...
dear, gossips are everywhere! they are jealous of you. that is why they talked bad about u. but dun worry, truth never lies!
put in faith and trust!
muackzzzz!!!

no worries!

my dearest lil star!
no matter what happened, you have mandy chua by your side.
you still have a bunch of friends that cared and placed you in their heart.
don't worry and just move on.
there is nothing you should worried about.
everything happened with reasons behind.
take this challenge and learn from it.
it is planned accordingly as your life journey as you grow!
everything will be alright real soon!
no worries..
love you my dearest lil star!!! =)

indications??

for the past few nights, i've been having nightmares where i dreamt people around me passed away and also some weird weird dreams! will it be a indication or sign that signifies changes that might occured to my surrounding?? haih.
currently lil star is not happy and he is in undecisive state!
pity my lil star! but i believe that everything would change to be better!
just place your faith with urself and also on god!
He will help u de! dear dear, nothing can be solved with anger covering your eye! dun be so foolish.
what is the benefit of being so uncontrollable and also filling your heart with hatred?
hmmm..
take a break and relax!!!!!!
love you!!!

la la la~

another week passes just like that again!
so damm fast! hmmm. i wonder, is it really true as what people said: when u are happy, the time flies but when u're not, time is moving like a snail? hmmm...
lil star, today is the day when i din get to see u for the whole day! =(
haih. i start to miss u ad! miss u so so so so so much!!!
haih. when oni i can see u again wor!
haih.

day by day!

everyday pass real swiftly without even u realising how fast is it!
haha. but why am i complaining about time pass so fast every time i blog?
i think i know why! i am afraid to be apart with my lil star again!
for now, we are seeing each other everyday! i dun want to be seperated from him again. i want to stick to him!!!! =((
but he seems to be enjoying the days passing so fast and anticipate to go back to his home! hmmm...
haih... but still, this is the fact i cant change! i just have to accept it! face it and overcome it!
jia you la mandy chua!
cheers! =)

monday!!!

monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday and one week passed with only this few days in!
now is already coming to an end for monday! so fast!
haha. but i am happy today for myself!!! i can smell and taste ad! weee~
hehe!!! so much to do and so limited energy and strength!
everyday during weekday seems like days that i have to fight and struggle to get the day pass on in a nice way! everyday there's a new challenge awaiting for me!hmmmm...so tiring yet fun!
learning things and experience lifetime stories every now and then! i really hope and i wish for................. guess what is it! hahaa...

02102011

so fast september ends and now is the new month ad and gosh! it is the third day of the new month! so fast so fast. just last week when my lil star became old star and now a week just passed! hmmmm!!!!
quite alot of things happened this week! not bad not bad!
most important i wanna blog about me falling sick!!!
after sooooooo long i was healthy, suddenly just before september ends, i fall sick!
hmmmm...
kinda serious! fever!!!!
haha. but now i am feeling so much better ad! yay!! hehe.
but still i cant smell and taste!! smell-less and taste-less!!
hehe....

happy 21st!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIL STAR, u are not lil now! u are OLD STAR now! hehe. happy birthday my darling baby!!
i cant give u much of surprise but hopefully u will enjoy ur big day by the side of ur friends and ME, ur fatty star! hehe. love love!
wish u a be-earlied birthday! hehe.
dear ah, old ad lu. must love me more kay! i want to be the one celebrating with u every year from now! can i? hehe.
dear, i can only hope for the best and pray for you as of now!
i want you to be happy and healthy and free from stress!
i want my lil star to be the happiest person on earth!
dear, with or without me, i want you to have the best life you could ever have!
i want you to have the best of the best!
will pray for you!
love you!
happy birthday again!
love you so so so much!!!!!
love me mah?? hehe.
old star!!! love love!!!!

a day!

its finally the weekend! felt so exhausted although it is only been a week when i am back to normal student life! classes in the morning is really tiring! but luckily, i can get some rest now!
hehe.and today, i went out town with cath, kah mei, ka chee and tung sing. quite a random combination as i am not that close to them! but, ended up, everything is okay la.
my dear dear is tired in rushing here and there for tmr's event! pitiful dear! and i am really bad to have him worry about me and thinking of how to make me happy!
sorry ah my dear. hehe. dun be mad or give up on me oh!
u should know ur dear dear me is abit childish in a way!
hehe. bluekkk!!
love you my dear!!
love love! budukai, good night!

current update!

hehe. my blog was abandoned for quite some time due to weak internet connection, timeless and also busy schedule every day! this is the second week i am back to labuan. time flies though! so fast!!
i am afraid of january coming so soon because it is the time where i have to be seperated with lil star!
T.T i dun want!! =((
but then, this week passed with some changes!
celebrated tung sing's birthday! lil star accompany me more often now!
japanese teacher is getting better in mood i guess.
APK's project brings in alot of questions and competitions but who cares! hehe.
hmmm. nothing much i guess!
but, sept 20th was our half-year anniversary! yeah!!!
did nothing much on that day! just like others normal day but lil star and i is getting better in terms of understanding i suppose! agree mah lil star?? hehe.
then, a few more days more and my lil star will be 21~
old lil star! hehe. i wanna be the special one by ur side to celebrate your birthday every year!
so, you must enjoy this few years celebrating it woth your friends and family because after this you belongs solely to me! hehe.
i owned you!! smurf u lil star!! muackzzz!!!
love you ah siow!
mandy ♥ kai kai!!

time flies~

Looking back, it is almost a week i am back to labuan again. Time really flies!
I still remember back den when I was in my dad's car on the way to KLIA, check-in clumsy-ly, bought a rm 7.20 mineral water, sat in the plane, back to mutiara and walked up and down to negotiate about my room and attended classes and etc etc..
so much i've done in one week time as compared to when i am back at kl den. hehe. I was so much lazy and less productive at home. hmmmm.. really miss the time when i am so free at home doing nothing!
hehe. but not too bad also la to be back to this island!
i can really see, touch, feel, kiss, hug, care, love and etc etc with my lil star!
felt so much warmer with him by my side! hehe. love u lil star.
i will start to learn from him!! i will care less about those gossips, bad talks and also complaints!
hehe. i rather stay HAPPY-GO-LUCKY!
and i wanna use the time wisely to get a better grade, love and care for my lil star more and have a better relationship with others!
i gotta learn in other to able to go through my career life in the future!
lil star, are u willing to guide me? hehe.
btw, today i went to church again!
can be said my time is spent wisely in terms of getting to know new friends and getting closer to current friends, can see stupid lil star's face, listen to meaningful talks, spent time having fun together, reading the bible and also listen to prayers!
hmmm. but pity lil star as he gotta stay over at the church!
sleep tight lil star!
love you!!
fatty star's heart belonged to you my stupid lil star!
muackzzz...
budukai wished you good night too lil star! hehe.

labuan life!

back to labuan again. no star here but i owned a lil star! yay!
lil star shinning brightly in front of me!
muackzz muackzz.. hehe..
shifted to mp1-4001 and staying with vanny!
somehow it is comfortable and nice to stay at my current house!
hehe. love it.
but i am asked to go and apply for beta.
when i din get beta at the first place, i feel so upset.
but when now i have to apply for beta, i felt upset too!
hmmmm...
so complicated!!
haha..

u are the lil star i owned!

lil star is emo today. nope, precisely is very emo! i cant be by his side to comfort him but i just hope that he will turn to me when he is really down and on the downfall of his feeling!
i will see him in 2 more days time! be patient!! =)
lil star, pray more and u can find ur inner-peace! trust me, after this 2 years are gone, you will miss every moment of it and you will hope that you can go back to this moment of time!
dear, be strong kay. although i am feeling sad and emo too! hehe. love you!

if there is anyone laughing and asking me, "what you seein him that attracts you?"
i'll answer, " i saw everything you see and also the things you cant!"
you are the fabulous boyfie oh!
love you my best boyfie i ever could have!
muackzz! your fatty star is strong to support you de!
place faith in her and trust me you can lean on me whenever you want!
my shoulder is reserved for you and same goes to my heart!
i wanna hold both of your hands and walk with you together gether through everything!
love you!!
fatty star love lil star!! *love love*

ugly ---> pretty!

now i realise self-confidence is important but ur dressing would be the first on the line to be judged as first impression rather than ur inner qualities. my boyfie make me realise that i am not that ugly but still not that pretty after all. with a lil make-over, i start to receive compliments. what if it is a whole make-over where i really filled up my closet with a new collection of clothings! haha.

this cardi is nice! i want~.....
should say this outfit is nice! imagine myself in it *naiseee*
this website previews clothings that i like!
so casual and comfortable..
have a look at the link!
http://stylelovely.com/mydailystyle/

just-a-post!

words are just an arrangement of alphabets but it signifies and conveys the message. But still sometimes it wont bring out the whole meaning or explain the exact feeling!
life is not as hard as u thought but it is not that easy too!
being comfortable and being happy is 2 different thing!
hmmmm.
be tough although is hard and move on!
time is moving on and wont stop to wait and that's the truth.

interesting! 5 facts that we cant change about a man!

hehe. came across this article and i find it kinda interesting!1st fact:
We will always lie to you

Not big, nasty fibs of course (we would never admit to that), but little white lies that actually serve a purpose - namely making you feel better about yourself and keeping us out of trouble.

So when you ask us if your outfit looks good, if we remembered to pay the electricity bill or if we are looking forward to your parents coming to stay, then we will always, always answer in the affirmative. Why? Because the alternative is too painful to contemplate.

*hmmm, at least my lil star will say i am ugly when i am really ugly so that i can be better! [luckily]*

2nd fact:
We will always sneak a look at other women

You might think you're the only girl your boyfriend looks at, but I guarantee he checks out at least 10 different females every single day.

One or two of them might even make him stop and think, 'I wonder what life with her would be like'. But don't let this worry you - in the end we always realise that it's a case of 'the grass is always greener', and that other girl would probably turn out to be dull as dishwater.

Despite our wandering eye, we never forget why we're with you in the first place.

*hehe. true true! but lil star always look at their good side and ask me to change to be better*

3rd fact:
We will always talk about you

Think your peccadilloes and idiosyncrasies stay between you and your boyfriend? Not a chance. No matter how often you do something embarrassing or, more likely, completely irrational, and then follow it with "please don't tell anyone about this", it will of course be the first thing we blab to our mates down the pub.

Sorry about that, but we need to check if it's normal. And have a good laugh at your expense, too...

*no wonder sometimes weng sing and henry will laugh at me la.but at least i am ur topic =)*

4th fact:
We will never want to talk about it

While women are much more grown up about talking about their feelings, for us it will always be torture. We understand the benefits of getting one's emotions out into the open, but that doesn't mean we have to like it, does it?

*no wonder lil star is so mad at me at that time [ but it's over!] teehee.. XD*

5th fact:
We will never say you have put on weight

Though you wouldn't think twice about pointing a finger at our paunch and saying, "this has to go", not in a billion years would we ever, ever draw attention to cellulite on your thighs or even the slightest hint of a muffin top.

I've made this mistake in the past, and the resulting histrionics mean I will never do it again. We really do get blamed for everything, you know...

*but lil star is diff. he is not a man?? haha, but still i love it! he corrects me because he cared and loved me! yay. *

Lil star, after reading this, i can conclude that my lil star is different as he loves me! hehe. whatever he did is for my good! hehe. i am so lucky to have him by my side to correct me! yay. nothing will goes wrong with u by my side!!
Love you my lil star!!!
love love!. hehe.♥

INTRODUCING.........

hallo. hehe. this post is to itroduce my companions on my bed! they've been accompanying me throughout the night and been waiting for me on my bed all the time! hehe.
1st in the line would be nana bear!

*given by fiona as my 19th bday pressie*

2nd would be kai kai!

*this is pressie from lili for my 20th bday*

[been accompanying me at ns!]

3rd in the line is my most precious!

hehe. tadaaa......budukai!! hehe..

*this is pressie from my dear lil star*

[hehe..isn't it cute??]

haha..stupid lil star!!

my big big family!!



amazing???

life is not as amazing as i thought when i get to know the fact that i'll be back to the island just in one week time! exactly a week from now!
actually i wont find it sad or i wont grumble on the fact that i'll be going back to labuan. This is merely because i am going back for good. it is better than me staying at kl doing ntg and achieving nothing! hehe. And i can get to see my LIL STAR soon! yeah!!!!
But then, still there is something ruining my mood to be back there!
1st: friends and surrounding.
 *u-should-know-who*
2nd: foods and delicacies.
 *awww*
3rd: entertainment!!!
 *movies, shopping, water sports*
4th: study!! and assignment
 *OH NO*!!
haha. but above all, i got my lil star by my side! yahooooo!!!!
 *giggling giggling non-stop*
hehe. cant wait to meet my lil star but hopefully everything will be alright!
surroundings is the biggest factor. crossing fingers and hope that everything will be fine! hehe.

amazing life!

this post is merely to remind me on what i've done in this one week time. hehe.
i cant remember much as time flies and din realise i am leaving kl real soon!
went out with ow ow and rachel,
[ had jojo pan mee and snowflakes] *yummy yummy*
 off to sunway lagoon with jia yen,
[ a fun day and we have our dinner at barbecue plaza] *cant find this at labuan*
meeting steph soon!
dad taught me a few yoga steps. haha. and it is kinda fun!
nothing much but i did enjoy myself this few days with the company of my lil star, friends and family!!
hehe.
lil star, this time i cant fly together gether with u back to labuan!
but i wanna fly with u together gether in the future!
not only just going back labuan or coming back from there but to all sorts of places!
i want you to be by my side all the time!!!
lil star, mandy chua loves you!!!

my holidays!

just as when i realise, time really pass very very fast! it is now almost the end of my long four months break from my studies! just in another 2 more weeks which is equivalent to 14 days, i'll be back to the island and start my 3rd sem!
hmmm. thinking back, i did nothing much this long sem break as compared to my other friends where they were able to involve themselves in working life, doing intern, visiting here and there, taking short courses and etc etc.
as for me, i spent most of my time at home, online, going out for drinks and movies, shopping, visiting my grandparent and fulfilling my national service! other than this, i would be eating, sleeping, lazing around doing ntg! what a waste of time.haha.
*luckily i am not turning into a big buffalo*
okieee, flashing back!
i am back to kl on may 12th with my boyfie!
12th of may!
crying and crying and crying! but that was my first experience flying with my lil star and spent some time together around kl city and had a meal at wong kok before we were seperated! *sob sob*

13th till 22nd of may!
staying at home, hanging out with friends, packing and lazing around before stepping my first step into NS camp at sungkai, perak.

23rd of may!
my first day at NS! OMGGGG... haha. undesricable feeling.
sad, nervous, excited, awaiting, missing, loving, home-sick, happy, glad and etc etc...so much of mixed feelings!!

23rd of may till 30th july!
NS life begins with anger, sadness, ungrateful, complaints and other negative feelings and ended with a joy of relieved, excitement and a better family relationship! learnt something there and experienced new things in life! not a bad experience though. and lil star was awaiting for me without any sign of giving up on me!! yay.. love you love you!!! ♥♥♥

30h july till 8th of august!
was staying at home as usual and did nothing much! my laptop is my bestie for this period of time! accompanying me from day to night! hehe.

9th aug till 15th aug!
went back to kuantan to visit my grandpa and granny. spent about a week there and i my grandma cooke a few of my fav dishes! yummy. *craving for it* hehe.
had fun there although my time spent there is almost the same as when i am at home. hehe. this one week is full with arguments with dear! luckily we manage to pull it through and overcome it! yeah. love love!! ♥♥♥

22nd aug till 24th aug!
a new experience for me! hehe.. went to boyfie's place and spent some time with him. although the trip is not ended that well but still i am happy with the time spent with him. hopefully everything will goes on smoothly as we wanted! *god bless me*

25th aug till 11th sept!
again, my time is spent at home and hanging outs with friends! hehe. went to viva's mall and met a few of my ex-schoolmates where i din see them for ages! haha. watched a movie with ns friends (yong, run and chris). future plans would be hanging out with steph, jia yen, ws, jimmy and henry, and also my ex-schoolmates, jia hui, bear bear, ah fut and suck yee! hehe. hopefully i am able to meet my other friends before i am bacck to the island again!

*my ss pic when i got nothing to do at home* hehe.

whinning is not the solution!

everything happened as in God's will! we cant question it because it is beyond our wisdom to evaluate it but we can only believe in his will for it to happen!
everything happened now in my life is really beyond my control and it is not as what i've expected!
there is good and bad things happening in my life now!
but i wont just sit at the corner and whine!
it is useless. tears are meant to be release but not as a solution!
crying do help out but not in solving the particular problem!
hope that everything will be fine soon!
will be back in order soon!
*pray pray*
i always tell this to my friends but now i am telling you!
only you will have my words now for the moment!
"i am always here for you whenever you need me! anytime, anywhere, anyhow and whatever it is!"
you got it?
for now i wont be available to enyone else except you!
i will be your listening ears, helping hands and if u need it, ur talking mouth!
dun keep it all to urself!
you are just merely a human!
you are not made of steel!
you do need support and allow me to be your support!
love you!
awaiting for you!
love love!!
♥♥♥

things happened with reasons!

things might happened as not like we want it to be at some time!
but everything happened for a reason behind.
thinking back, just as like u tried to explain to me about GOD and your saviour.
we exist because of them and can i link this to what had happened this few days??
i went to johor because of you, but you were scolded because of me.
all this is because of our love!
maybe it is affected by the time and also the people around us.
you were scolded by your parent because they love you!
while you talked back to your mum because you love me!
and i cant help out although i love you!
things had happened.
put it in this way, through this we learnt something and understands your parent's thinking and view.
hence, what done is done! what past is past.
pray to your God and ask for forgiven and i believe HE will show you the way!
dear, i really did enjoy myself! believe me!
but i knew that maybe i really did not showed up in a proper way.
u cant blame your parent my dear.
they are worry about you!
believe me. one day if our love is strong enough, it will touches their heart and they will und why!
haha. i am just crapping but i do believe in reasons!
there is always a reason behind everything that happen!
hehe.
dear, love you!
all i can say is be strong and remember you are not alone.
your parent is harsh in words but their love to you is great just as like your love to them!
and you will always have a guidance from your creator and also me by your side!
remember oh, mandy chua is always here for you!
love you!
♥
♥
♥

woohooo!!

today is sunday, my lil star is at nilai where the place is just 45 minutes away from kl! i wanna see him but its ok. i wait, i wait and i wait! just in another few more hours and i'll be able to meet him.. yay!!
although it is just a short trip but i hope that it will be very meaningful for both of us! hehe.
love u lil star!
i wanna see ur stupid face, touch ur stupid body, kiss ur stupid mouth and hug my lil star!!!!
lil star, finally i can touch u, feel u, hold u and kiss u!
yeah!!
muackss muackss!!
awaiting for tmr!! =)

lil star!!

lil star, u've been busy again today! and i guess u must be very tired! sorry ah for not being by ur side to relax u down!..
lil star, remember oh, fatty star is always here supporting you and waiting for you oh!
lil star, is not being in love makes me happy but it is being in love with you makes me happy oh!
sometimes words are hard to find to form that perfect line to let you know you are always on my mind!
but you are really always in my mind and heart!
lil star, don't worry. you have someone always loving, waiting, caring, and needing you all the time by your side!
do you realise it?? hehe.
fatty star loves little star!
the only star shinning brightly in my heart!!
muacksss!!!

little star, how are you?
i am back le! miss me mah? hehe.
lil star, alot of things happened recently. but, i wanna let u know that my love to you has not change oh!
hehe.
lil star, i am always here for u kay!
always bear in mind you still have fatty star oh!
although this fatty star is sometimes childish, troublesome, make u angry and frustrated, but fatty star's heart is always for u oh!
hehe.
lil star, fatty star loves you! =)

one week!!

hmmmm.. it is weird to realise that whenever i will be leaving home going somewhere, my heart seems to be very heavy to leave my house and leave nd my laptop..
i can feel the distance between us is so far away!
is it because i cant get to see you through skype??
is it because i cant get updated with ur stuff??
haih..
one week le! i am going back to kuantan for one week le!
and i cant see you even through skype le!!
i start missing u badly now!!!
haih..
i am really in need of you!
can you come to my side now?
even if it is in my dream??
i really miss u alot alot!!
haih..
little star, can u come to my side and shine brightly beside me??
=(

hearts you!! =)

meeting you was fate..becoming your friend was my choice ..but..faling so madly in love with you was beyond my control !

you are mine!! you belongs to me!!

love you love you!!

life is unpredictable!

appreciate every moment and every second we have together!!

hehe!!

love love!

you've been occupying my heart!

make sure it is ongoing beating!!

dun neglect my heart kay!!

hehe...
money cant buy anything, but ur smile bought my heart and also my love!!
keep on smiling!!
anything that could take away ur smile, pls share it with me because i wanna get rid of it together gether with you my darling baby!!
little star, make sure u are shinning brightly!!
fatty star will always be by ur side!!! m
love love!!

tiring!!

wonder how shopaholic can keep their shoping spirit so up high??
been walking around de whole day and i really can shout out, I am tired!!!!
hmmm, although i am walking with my grandma, but still i felt very tired!!!
but, the satisfaction covers up my tiring mood la..
at least my grandma is happy!!
hehe..
bi bi, u must be tired too!!
have a good rest kay!!
the next time i wanna walk with u the whole day, the whole month , the whole year, walking down through my future with u always by my side!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe...
dear, 143!!(guess what is it!) hehe!!!

back!!

i am finally back!
been back for few days and only now i spend some time writing on my blog. it is maybe because i am too used to write letters rather than typing. hehe.
btw, there is new changes in me after ns.
a new look (darker complextion)
a new hair (like a bush)
a new body figure ( a bit slimmer with muscle on my arm)
a new mind (different perception of seeing something)
a new bunch of friends
a new memory and story
but still the same old love!
hehe..
my heart is still being occupied by HIM!!
no one can ever take over his place in my heart!!
hehe..
yes you, Siow Cheng Kai, u are the HIM!!
hehe..
love you love you!
thanks waiting for me all this while!
love love.. muackzzzzz
do u love me??
hehe..
u will reply, what crap are u asking! hehe
love you, my dear baby cheng kai! =)

the day!

just only on that day i am so excited for coming back home and now it is the time to go back again to ns...
haih...
time passed soooo fast!!!
haih...
i will miss my home again!!
i will miss my beloved dear dear!!
i will miss my time when i skype!!
i will miss my time wid my phone!!
i will miss my stupid dear's face!!
i will miss siow cheng kai!!!
i will miss die siow cheng kai!!
siow cheng kai, i miss u so so so so much!!!!!!!!
haih!!!!

life!

came back yesterday from ns for a short break and back to my normal life!!
hehe...
i love my life!!
staying at hoem doing nothing much!!
can sms and chat wid my dear dear!!
watch movie and stuff...
go out with friends~
go out with mum!!
nice lunch and dinner!!
what a life...
but my fear is here again...
will be back to ns a day after tmr...
oh no!!!!
dear dear...
i gonna miss u so so so so much....
love u my dearest dear!!!!
*sayang sayang*

break!!

finally after almost a month, i am back for a very very short holiday!! only 4 days!!!!
i experience something different in ns...but still sometimes i find it hard to accept that i am in that camp!!
there's a lot of people in this world and they are behaving differently each and every one of them...
all i know is that, i wont be able to change them but only myself!
hence, i learn to accept and treat them as what they wish to be!!

and as when i go ns, i leave behind my beloved dear dear!!
i am sorry dear dear!!!
but all this while in ns i really miss u alot alot alot!!!
how i wish u are by my side!!!
dear dear!!!another month more oni.....
we must be strong ah!!!
i really miss u miss u miss u!!!!!
wait for me to be back pls!!!
love you!!!
 ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2 months break~

wont be able to post for 2 months and the half...
my blog will be full with dust but no worries, as i m a responsible owner for sure i will come and clean the mess when i am back and fill it with words of joy and love!!
dear dear...
now we shift to the traditional method of spreading the words of love le!!
hahaha.....
i will miss u throughout this period!!
u must miss me too oh...
wait for me to come back ah!!!
i love you and u love me...
we are a happy couple!!!hahahahah
dear..
i promise u that i will take good care of myself and i will always place u in my mind and heart!!!
hehe.
u too oh!!!
love you love you!!!
muackzzzzzzzzzz.....

we will be walking together throughout our life!

♥♥♥

knock knock,
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that she loves u lots oh!!
hehe..
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that she misses u lots oh!!
hehe..
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that she will take care of herself oh!!
hehe..
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that she will always be there for you whether or not u are down oh!!
hehe..
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that u are her precious one oh!!
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that u are her important person in her life oh!!
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that she is lucky to have u oh!!
lao gong ah!
mandy chua wanna tell u that u are her fluffy fluffy lao gong oh!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥
lao gong ah!
mandy chua really love you and she only wants you to be her partner of her life oh!!
really love you lots!!!
love love!!!
**sayang my lao gong**

love love!!

dear dear ah....
3 more days den i will be at ns ad la...hahaha
but dun worry la...
we will still be connected...
hehee....
whenever u are upset just tell me la...
i will be here to cure you!!!!
haha...
love you!!!!
love you dear dear!!!
hehehehe.....
love love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cheers!

hmmm..dear ah...u jealous over those posts in fb and told me that all those words are sweeter than yours..
u care about words rather than my heart??? =(
haih...
u still cant feel how much i love you??
i really din meant to hurt or make u jealous...
i am really sorry....haih..
but i just wanna let you know that at that time, i gt all those words through an application de......
i dun post at ur wall because i wanna avoid gossips from ur ssil friends and also from ur family...
i thought people will find me faking if i posted all those words the way i posted at his wall...
dear....
u are totally different from him...
don't measure our love through words leh!!
ou love is more than that i suppose!
dear ah.....
hmmmm....
i really dunno what to say or what to do ad in other to ease ur jealousy...
but please, don't keep quiet and draw a distance from me!!
u wont now that feeling when u are really empty!!
not i want to get ur sympathy but...
haih...
i oso dunno what to say ad...
all i can say is i love you!!!
i really love you!!!
don't doubt my love le!!
haih...
love you fluffy fluffy lao gong!!!

lovee..

cherish and make good full use of every moments and fill it up with love!
there is not much time in our life!!
hehe...
so siow cheng kai, cherish every moments and appreciate me more ah!!!
hehe...
love you love you!!
hehe...

dear!!

dear dear...i am sorry for bringing so much trouble to you!!!
i am really sorry...
i hope that u can still cope with it..i love you!!!
all i want is just to be with you!!
i don't care about others...
what i care is u..
yes you, SIOW CHENG KAI!!!
i really do care about you only!!!!
please stay strong...
after all this, we've got nothing to worry ad!!
sorry that u have to be bothered with those fucking jerk but i promise i will ease your burden together gether...
dear...for my sake, please be strong and we endure it together!!!
i love you!!!!
don't allow those minor things to bother you and disturb our life!!!!

=(

i hate my past...one biggest mistake i have made...one wrong step that i've took...not to say that he is not good but we are really not suitable for each other...and as of now, we've been walking our own path, why the hell u still want to disturb my life...what the fuck is in ur mind...do ur own things and leave me alone pls...i hate all this...i've gt ntg to do with u ad...pls leave me alone...dun disturb me and the people around me...
can all those jerks disappear from my life.....
pls....i just want a life....

love love!!

hmmm...today would be the 5th day without u by my side!!!
and today is wesak day...went to temple and came back feeling sooooo tired although i did ntg much..hehehe....dear dear....
i realise i am really happy and glad to have u as my boy boy!!!
u really care about every small bits bout me...sheltering me with so much attention and love...
hehehe...love love!!!!
kinda glad to have you by my side!!yeahhhhhh...
dear dear....
everytime u feel down or emo, just write to me or sing to me or do something for me...
i love surprise!!!hehehe...i want surprise!!!yeah!!!
dear dear..
i love you!!!!
i really love you!!!!
i really really love you!!!!
hehehehe...
love love!!!!
fluffy fluffy lao gong...
ur lao po love u lots!!!!!
=)

love love...

today i will be going out le!!!
will update u later kay!!!
love you love you!!!! =)
fluffly fluffy lao gong!!!!!

stupid fool!!

today would be the third day!! and my stupid lao gong uttered stupid words....
lao gong ah lao gong...
i dun care that u are the best or not, i dun care are u capable or not, i dun care what u are..
but what i care is that i love you and you love me...that is what matters most...
you may have the thinking that with love you cant buy or get everything but i can tell u that with love i can achieve everything that we hope for...
dear, please dun compare urself with others...
you are the only i want!!!
i really really want you to be my partner for the rest of my life...i only want you...
we can work everything out together...
dear, all i need now is support and love from you!!!
i can do alot with ur never ending love pouring on me!!!
you are the best lao gong i ever wanted and ever can have....
don't ponder on your capability and my love to you...
i love you!!!
a true lover is when they endure everything together gether...
it is meaningless if a person is rich and capable of giving me everything but just not love...
as for me...all i need is love!! and also care...
SIOW CHENG KAI, u are the only want capable of giving me love and care...
u worry everything and every bits about me..i felt so secured and appreciated when u worry about me..
it shows that someone is really waiting and hoping for me to come back in one piece...
at least i know there is someone i am living for!!
dear, i love u, i love you!!!
words can describe how important are you to me!!!
i really love you lots!!
please don't ever give up on our relationship...it is not that hard...cant we endure this 4 months together?? this is just an obstacle...after this we would be together and gether again...
as close as ever!!
and live happily ever after!!!
dear!!! continue shower me with your love and care pls!!
love you my fluffy fluffy lao gong!!!!

second day!!

today is the second day without u by my side!!
hmmm...but still i can feel u by my side!! hehehe...love love...
dear ah dear...today i did ntg much...
just be a pig whole day lor....
last few days we were spending all the time together but now we are doing our own thing ourselves at different place...how i wish u are by my side all the time!!!
haha...but then, thinking about it...only now would be the time for us to be apart...but after this i guess we would be staying together till ntg can seperate us..
isn't wonderful???hahaha
*day-dreaming* mood!!!
love love!!!
fluffy lao gong, i love you!!!!

14th may!

today is the first day we are far apart from each other and there is many more days to come!!
but dear dear...u just have to place your faith on me and also yourself...u are the only one i ever wanted in my life!!!
i love you damm much!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i miss u toooooo..............................
i love you i love you!!!!

the day!! =(

finally here comes the day when we will be spending 12 hours together but later on being apart for dunno how many days...hmmm...sad case!!
i will be going ns somemore... WHAT THE HELL!!
haih...btw...sometimes when i am angry or not in a good mood is not because i am angry over you but in turn, i am angry over myself..
so dun get me wrong kay!!
and i know what u did and what u will be doing wid "   " (u should know who) is for my own good but sometimes i juat control in getting jealous...
natural feeling le...in comparison, alot others will be doing the same thing as me oso what!!
so just bear with me and explain to me whenever i mind about it kay... i und but it feels good when u explain and "pujuk" me!!! hehehe
dear!!
i will be missing u so so so so so much!!!
haih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE u!!!
but lets start the countdown!!!
123 days to go (not taking into account the days u MIGHT come and visit me during the holidays!!
hmmm
love u love!!!

u u u u u....

i need u now my dear...
every seconds, every minutes, every hours and every day seems to pass very fast bringing the day where we will be going back to our own hometown is drawing near!!
i dunno how to express my feeling but what i know is that i really really really miss u lots as till now i start to have the feeling of missing u buried deep inside my heart....
i really love you!!!
i am glad that you are here to be by my side....
thanks my dear....
thinking in another way, we will still be able to see each other during the holiday and also the upcoming semesters....hehe...
but still..............................................................................................
i MISS u so so so much!!!

you are the one!!

Boys are like stars, there are millions of them out there, but only one can make your dreams come true.

and you are the one making my dreams come true!!
yes you i am talking about...
my dearest lao gong!! =)
finally..left with just a few hours for u to be back to my side!!
i m sorry for being selfish with the thought if wanting u to come back but i just cant help it...
i want u to be by my side and i need u!!
=)
bear with me kay...love you!!

one fine day!!

today i guessed u've know what my schedule will be~
hehehe....cant wait for it...cant wait for it..
yeah yeah yeah.....33 more hours to go!!!
hahaha.....
i wanna tell u that i will love your everything...
as u once told me that, loving each other is not only about loving their good side but oso loving their negative side which meant love everything about the person we love....
hence, i wanna tell u that i really love your everything...
i really do my love one...
feel it slowly!! hehee...
love you my dearest!!

my lao gong!!

you are really the best thing happened in my life!!! hehehe....
my love one!! =)
p/s: please don't be jealous girls out there!! he is mine!!....

25th april le~

although u asked me not to update my blog, i still insist to do it~
bluekkk...hehehe...
as usual for me today...ntg much!!
but..i guess my laptop is as sweet as the owner because there is so many ants lingering out from the keyboard and around my laptop....arghhh...stupid ant!!
dear...cant wait for u to come back o!!!
fast fast come back to my side...hehehe
love you love you...
gambateh in studies!!!
study for the last time because after this u wont be seeing all these books again!!!
hehehe...
love you =)

ONE week le~

hehe...before i start, i wanna wish my dear lao gong HAPPY EASTER DAY...hehehe...
hmmm...today i did ntg much...went to church and back to my room at about 10.30....
online awhile and i plan to sleep soon!!!
dear dear...one week without you made my life seems so dull...but lucky enough that we wont need to attend any classes as for now...and i just have to stay at home like nobody business on what is happening outside...hehehe...
dear ah...do you know how much i missed u!!har har har...
i don't care, u must compensate me!!!hehehe
my love one, i am really happy and glad to have you by my side...
i am the luckiest girl on earth o!!!hehehe....
i love you!!!



my love!! =)

ordinary me~

today would be just the same as the previous days....din go anywhere...woke up at 12.30pm which is an unusual one and would start touching my laptop, books, laundries, foods and later on my bed...
my day for today would be just like other ordinary days without any special events on the hold...
and to you, i have no idea what happened but just take your time...
have a good day!! anything, i am always here waiting for you!!
my time is reserved for you~
miss u!!

fri-love!!!

went to campus today and did ntg much with my studies...was doing all sorts of work ranging from photostating to binding and collecting money...and i am lucky to have my dear lao gong accompanying me all the time...arghhh...imissyoudammmuch!!! i really really miss u!!!!!!
dear...i love u!!!
i want u and only u as my partner of my life..believe it anot, i really really love u!! =)
my cute bee lao gong!!!

can i be by ur side all the time just like in this pic??? =)

=)

today is the 6th day u are not by my side...anyway and anyhow, this would be a short one as i wanna catch the bus to campus!! will update my dear lao gong very soon when i am back kay!! love u!!!!

21st april------>5th day!! =(

sorry for not listening to your advice...but i just dun feel like sleeping yet...though i did nothing much with my studies, but i find out that it is kinda fun to stay up till this late and have all the moments of silence to myself...and without realising, my heart is aching because i miss u so much my dear!!!
how i wish you are now by my side for me to be able to look after u while u are sleeping soundly....
i wanna be your guardian angel and always be the girl u reach out for when u are in need....i wanna be the girl that is most important to u!! hehehe...

I love you not because of who you are but because of what you're making me becoming to!

dear ah dear....thanks for everything...i am anticipating for you to be back to my side....i am used to have you by my side all the time le...

life is beautiful with you in it!!! hehehe...

dear dear...u gave me the chance to smile stupidly to my laptop and also my phone....

u gave me the chance to daydream with a broad smile on my face....

u gave me the chance to think of u all the time...

u gave me the chance to pour my love to u...

and u gave me the chance to say " I LOVE YOU"....

thanks my dear dear cute cute bee lao gong!!! =)

**ぶた ぶた** XD

love u my dear!!!

my love my love!!! =)

this post is merely to brag on how blessful and lucky of me to have u as my dearest!! hehehe...

" dear ah, if i concern about ur outer appearance, i wont be with u la. Not to say my lao po is not pretty enough for me, just to tell u, ur looking doesnt matter to me, i love ur heart n everything u are having now. "

"

lao po lao po, r u there ?? love u love u love u. :)

mandy chua, i love u, i love u, miss u badly, my dear. :( love the way u watch me, love the way u cried over me, love the way u cook for me, love the way u date with me, love the way u miss me, love the way u scold me, love the way u lie on me, n love the way u love me. :) love u , my dear lao po. ♥. "

sent to me by my dearest lao gong...how sweet is him!!!! i really love you my dearest!!!

u are the one in a million that came to my side and protected me...giving me much attention, care and love. U are really important to me...

thanks alot my dear...

love u love u love u and miss u miss u miss u....

i really love u!! =)

our first month!! love!!

today is april 20th!! and we've been one month together!!! hehehe....
still remember on the day when we first hold hand...we've spent the time from morning till night together....
we went to church together, u came and supported me when i play netball, went and fetch "queen" together and later ate dinner together...
and time flies till now we've been in a relationship for a month!!!
yeah!! =)
my dearest, i am very happy to have found you and be with u!!
i am really happy to have u by my side...
i am really happy for the love u've showered me...
i am really happy for the care u've sheltered me with...
i am really happy for the time we had together...
and
i am really happy to know that there is a plenty of time ahead to be together with u...
we've been overcoming lots of obstacles together and i guess there is more coming but i have the confident that we can overcome it easily as the love bond in us is hard to break....
believe me...u are the only one i ever wanted....
no matter where am i going or heading too, my heart is reserved for you!!
i am glued to u!! =)
i love you!!!!!
as u said, lets us cherish all the moments we will be having together....
i really miss u my dear!!
i love you!!!!
my little cute cute bee bee dear lao gong!!! <3 <3 <3
love u love u love u!!!!

19th april----3rd day =(

to-do-list of the day!!
1)TAKE oat for my breakfast as what dear requested me to do!!
2)go to campus using 2.30pm bus to meet sensei
3)revise one chapter each for cc, he and japanese
4)mind my meals
5)missing u badly!!!!!
3rd day now and i have to wait for another 9 days before i am able to meet u again...do u know how much i missed u!!!
arghhhh....how i wish u are by my side always....
but anyhow, i guess although we are far away from distance but we are close in our heart!!!
hearts u lots!!!
love u love u!!!

lovee =)

"mandy chua xin yi, can u pls pls pls take it seriously, it is ur health. Haizzz. Mandy ah, i don't want anything to happen with u. :( from today onwards can u pls mind ur eating?? Can u at least sms me b4 u eat anything?? Till i go back to labuan, is quite troublesome but i really want u to jaga ur eating. Can? I have just finished eating my dinner. Dear, promise me, take ur health problem seriously. K?? "

this is sent to me by my precious bee!! so warm and caring!!
p/s: i really love the way u cared...i really really really love it!!!
thanks alot my love!! =)
hehe...
everyone would be jealous for me to have u!!!!! =)))
the best thing in me is u!!!

18th april (second day)...

today would be a tough day for you i guess!!
but no worries, i would be here for you all the time whenever u need me despite of anything happened!!
stay strong kay!!!
as for today, it would be an ordinary monday to me without u here...
i woke up at about 11am.....
clean up all those unwashed dishes and throw away rubbish and stuff, clean myself up abit and now it is at about 11.40am...
my plan for today:
1) study japanese and HE
2)at about 4 to 5pm, go to family mart
3)cook and eat dinner
4)watch bleach
5)fb awhile
6)continue study
7)sms with you whole day
8)miss u
9)loving u
10)miss u and loving u

p/s: i will be missing u the whole day!!! =(

anyhow!! stay strong and be tough...but if u wanna cry, cry on my shoulder...iwouldneverletufall!!!
iwouldnotlaughatu but iwouldwipeawayyourtears!!!

continuity of 17 april!!

continuing my day today....hehehe...i went over to ying's house at about 3.45 for make-up session!!at about 5.15, mc(technical ajk of the vampire night) came and pick us up to tiara....
reacehd tiara at about 5.30...
practice and walk around till at about 7.45pm where the event started and i am performing for the opening dance...after that, de event goes on with dinner and stuff..as to me, this event is nothing special to me as u are not here!!! hmmm...but its ok....cox deep inside u are already attached to my heart!!!
=D

my love belongs to you!! =)

the guy!!!

attention!!!
this guy is mine!!!
i will protect him from now and then....

i love u!! hehe

17th april...

you are flying back today and this marked the beginning of my days without u!!
really hard to get use to it...but.........not to make u worry, i promise u i wil be doing fine!! =)
i guess u should know how i will go through my day today.
din go for the rehearsal and stay in my room for the whole morning...at about 3 i will be getting ready for the vampire night. den will be going to tiara following the 5.30 bus. den i dunno what will happen..hahaha... i will keep u updated kay!!!
love u lots... and this is not just mere words...i guess u are feeling it bits by bits how indulged i am to u right!! hahaaha...
have a nice trip back!!! i love u!!!

believe it or not...

hey you, yes you!!
believe it or not, u are really important to me...
u meant alot to me...pls dun compare urself to others...
i promise u, i will show u my faith, my love, my loyalty to gain ur trust!!
all this is not just mere words but i will prove it!!
=)
with love...

lalalala....

this week would be the last week where the assignments are bugging us which is something that student would love BUT, it also marked the days for the final exams are nearing us...hahaha....this sem is nostalgic...all the assignments were done last minute without much effort on it....and till now i haven touch anything on my syllabus....woohooo...good job good job!!hahaha...
but.....no bad feeling overwhelm me yet...hopefully...it would be the same as my previous examination where i managed to pull it through with not much difficulties....hehehe....

just the way u are~

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I sayyou are amzing as u are!!
stay as what u are and i love it~
=)
i love "green vegetable"...hahahaha
♥♥♥♥

my love

i love cheng kai!!

april fool!!

this day marked a day to fool around without having to worry of ppl gettimg angry and also it marked steph's birthday!!! ehehehe....1st of april 2011 is a day different den my past years...this year i missed steph's birthday as i m now at labuan..hmmmm...although i din get to meet her but still i am happy that she is happy for the card i posted it to her (credited to green vege as well)...hahaha...and on this day usually we will kena fool but it is the opposite to me as i am not fooled but blessed!!! hehehe... to have a guy by my side always there for me ~~ thanks o!!! =)